Square One and Buddy

The other day it was warm so I took Buddy for a jog around the neighborhood. I got dressed and as soon as I put Buddy's collar on him he got excited. He knew we were going for a run. While I was putting my tennis shoes on he started pacing and running around whining. It was as if he was saying, "hurry! hurry! let's go!" I had to say wait we aren't ready yet.

Although my relationship with God is different, it is also the same as my relationship with my dog. I am so excited about what God is going to do that I say to God hurry, hurry! But God gentlly reminds me, "we aren't ready yet". Wait.

Although God doesn't have to wait, he calls me to wait. And even though it may be painful at the moment it will be so benificial in the future. He has called to be faithful in the little things and he will be faithful in the big things. Oh the waiting is so hard. I know He is training me for something, but what? Missions? To be a wife? mother? To be a nurse? All of the above?

I hope, I pray, I wait. I am in square one. Just me and God. Waiting and trusting. But even if God had no guy for me, no family to call my own, I know He will provide for me and be my protection and fulfillment.

Even though it is a lot darker now then ever before I glimpses of light. I know God is going to break through my darkness so His light can shine.